i'm not sure how to start this blog. all i know is that many things have been running through my head over the last few days, or as my best friend would say, i've been "pensing." i'm not even sure what it's all about, so i guess i'll settle with this.
love is a funny, funny thing. i remember being a little girl and always wishing i could be the flower girl. when i turned 15, i fell in love with boys, unhealthily, but humorously so (but i console myself with the fact that basically every girl went a little boy-crazy sometime in her teenage years). at 18, i couldn't wait to head off to college and meet some "real men," and now a year later, i've learned that God brings people into your life when you least expect them, and that before i'm ready for that "real man," i need to be completely in love with Him. and slowly but surely i'm learning that to be in love with God means more than saying you love Him. it means talking with Him everyday, even when you're not in the "mood." it means acting selflessly, even when you feel like being selfish. it means listening carefully & talking less. it means falling in love with the things that make God's heart pound. it means that your heart breaks for the things that break God's. and i'm still not totally there, but He is patient, unfailing, and forever pursuing us, romancing us.
falling in love must be a scary thing. falling in love with God, not so much. falling in love with a guy, who knows? it can catch us off guard, come out of nowhere. it's the one thing most of us have wanted all our lives, whether we've known it or not. if God is love and we are created in His image, shouldn't we desire love as well? in terms of "that guy," it means letting someone completely in, knowing only that God holds your heart. it means hoping that "that guy" loves God more than he loves you, knowing that God cherishes you, and trusting that "the guy" will treasure you in the same unconditional way.
all i know, is that falling in love with God is the first step to finding true love anywhere else.