just over 48 hours i launched my photography page on FB, and my brain has been thinking about [almost] nothing else ever since! seriously guys, i have a massive exam in less than 48 hours and have probably spent a total of 2 hours studying, if that. it's bad news. while i should be studying the constitution and the industrial revolution and blah, blah, blah, all that historical stuff, i've been blog-stalking and photo-page stalking and grasping at any sort of inspiration i see.
i've been encouraged seeing that everyone great started somewhere small - you know what i mean? a part of me is really afraid to dream big dreams. what if they don't happen? what if i mess up? what if i fail? what if other people don't see my dream? but there are people who i look up to now who also started with a small dream once upon a time. in this day and age, i think it's all about just putting yourself out there. doing it confidently. doing it boldly. i'm lucky to have a group of people who inspire me (even if they don't know who they are, or don't know me at all). i guess that's the value of social media. you gain a network. you gain knowledge, wisdom, and advice from people right next door or thousands of miles away. we all have pipe dreams. in the twenty-first century though, we can share them with each other, and that makes all the difference to me.
i'd like to see Debbie Huber Photography unfold into something big. something that will bless others. something that will make me grow and see things a new way. i want to meet new people and make them smile when they see photos of themselves. i don't want to be afraid to be real - to tell people that i love Jesus and that i am who i am. i want to be bold enough to be that girl without the fear of losing potential clients. i want to remember what is most important in life, and not lose sight of what has already brought me so far. i want to find balance - to be crazy about my passion, but also to drop all of it to meet the needs of my boyfriend, my family, my friends. they are most important. honestly, without them, i wouldn't be where i'm at today. i want to trust that God will open doors and close others, and that He will lead me where He wants me to go.
i want to create a logo-ish thing, i want to have a legitimate photo blog, i want to have tabs on my blog - you know, the 'about me,' 'photos,' 'pricing,' kind of tab things, i want to intern with another photographer or company. one day, i want to work with film and own an old film camera. i want to make a jar labeled 'photography' and put all my earned money into it so i can save up for new things. i want to make my FB page a place of real-ness and inspiration and all things lovely.
most importantly, i want the people i interact with to treasure their photography experience. i want to make it memorable for them.
i feel like i'm on the edge of something big. i'm just trying my very hardest to be patient until i can see what that something big is.